To Die For

(I Just) Died In Your Arms Tonight


I keep looking for something I can't get
Broken hearts lie all around me,
and I don't see an easy way to get out of this
Her diary, it sits by the bedside table
The curtains are closed, the cat's in the cradle
Who would've thought that a boy like me could come to this.

Chorus:
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said,
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away, I should've walked away.

Is there any just cause for feeling like this?
On the surface I'm a name on a list
I try to be discreet, but then blow it again.
I've lost and found, it's my final mistake.
She's loving by proxy, no give and all take
'Cause I've been thrilled to fantasy one too many times.

Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away, I should've walked away

It was a long hot night
She made it easy, she made it feel right
But now it's over, the moment is gone
I followed my hands, not my head,
I know I was wrong.

Chorus

Años De Dolor


A shattered man that's what I am
it never was the plan
drowned in lies with despise
bitterness is no surprise

I lost my future lost my hope
day by day I try to cope
emptiness spreads from within
the walls are closing in

just ignore me I don't care
if I die I am prepared

in years of hate I lost my everything
the only way is down
in tears of rage I drown my every sin
in tears of rage I drown

empty walls keep staring back
best friends that I ever had
to hell with all your sympathy
it's all the same to me

now it's too late
the walls are closing in

Autumn Forever


Here comes the dawn of a new day
Comes without a light, it's grey
Grey as yesterday
The frozen ground keeps sleeping
Under my feet
Everything feels cold
It's my inner fear

Could you save me

Break the chains around my heart
Set me free
Let me breathe and let me fly
Away, away
Faces look cruel in the twilight
No smiles for anyone
Darkness has captured my mind
It's eternal autumn
Lives in me
No place to hide
No place to escape (I've tried!)

I'm not strong enough to run

Chains


When I close my eyes
I see you appear
I'm drawn to you my dear
I dream of you
No chains can bind me

In my dreams I'm longing for your sin
The warmth of your caress

In this dream I'll keep you forever mine
Until the end of time

I was longing for your blessing
But you were a devil in disguise
My sweet mistress of despair
You turned my dreams into lies

I follow you to the darker side of night
You take my hand and pull me closer
I realize there's no way I can wake

Chaotic Me


Salvation what it is?
Quiet conscience and creed?
I'm too lost to be saved.
I've done what I've done,
Never dreamt about babylon I've built my own heaven!
Save yourself if that's what you want?
I feel powerful to be chaotic me!

There's no gods in my nights and days
I'm my biggest lord and I always will be
Your religion in not for me!
I've built my own world
Sweet chaotic me!

I'm guilty alone,when something goes wrong!
It's not the punishment from gods.
Conscience doesn't bother me about yesterday
...I'm proud of myself

I'm too lost to be saved..lost in my nights and days
I obey my own rules
Sweet rules that I've made
Salvation what it is? nothing but a piece of shit
My heaven in real... My heaven is real!

Crimson Twins


Come and drown with me
In the sea of apathy
Deeper in we`re drawn
On this downward spiral

We passed the point of no return
The moment we intertwined
On the shores of misery
Washed by crimson tide

Blood is what unites
Crimson twins we are
Blood is what unites
Our darkened hearts

Death is not what it seems
It`s just a new beginning
For a lifetime of pain
Until we die again

Blood is what unites
Crimson twins we are
Blood is what unites
Our darkened hearts

Dripping Down Red


She stalks at night with hunger
She takes you down and leaves you cold

Lady in black the fallen angel
Nocturnal beauty with looks that kill

Dripping down all red

Night by night down to it
Night by night she gets what she wants

One by one they fall down
One by one they do as she pleases

They are all crying for their lives
As it is dripping down all red
Begging on their knees for staying alive

They are all crying for their lives
As it is dripping down all red
Begging on their knees for staying alive

She leaves you cold yeah

You know she will get what she wants
They are all down on their knees

They are all crying for their lives
As it is dripping down all red
Begging on their knees for staying alive

Dripping down all red

Dying Embers


It´s the hour of fading light
embers of my life
save me from myself
you touched the fire
and took it out of me
the flame is gone for all eternity

Nothing can hurt me
i´m safe within your grace
whatever comes our way
you will protect me

you gave me something
more precious than this life
you touched the fire
and took it out of me

after all i still believe
in life and blood relation
i know i´m drained of both
now it´s all the same to me
i´m safe in isolation
surrounded by your love

with a silent whisper
you came from the dark
left me with spinters
of my broken heart

Endlessly


Life, like a poison in me
Destroyed my innocence and dreams
I've been told life is the gift
Oh, that gift makes me sick!

Smiling faces, those happy ones
I feel nothing
I'm totally numb
But in the silence of the night-time with you
I can feel momentary warmth

You are too much for me to lose
Endlessly I love you
My blood still runs just because of you
You are too much for me to lose
Endlessly I love you
You're my shine
You're my rain

When comes the day of my destiny
Without you I won't leave
You're the shining light in the middle of the dark
You're the rain in my withered heart

Epilogue


Now I write this final letter
To whom it may concern
It is time to close a chapter
The last one in this world

Soon as I'm done writing
It's time for me to go
I make the final cut
And let the red stream flow

I'm thrown in death's embrace
I feel its soothing warmth
Calmess on my face
I close my eyes for evermore

Down the road to the unknown
I walk the narrow
And I feel the comfort
Of leaving life behind

Soon as I'm done walking
I've left the world behind

Fall Strains


Where were you when I needed someone
to help me ease my pain
where were you when I needed comfort
to get me through the day

there was no one to hold my hand
when I couldn't sleep at night
no one there to understand
too scared to sleep 'til daylight

another night without you
another night of fear
another night of loneliness
wishing you were here

can't find the light without you
darkness calls me near
to another sleepless night
wishing you were here

years we shared have lost their meaning
without you by my side
memories of all the good times
bring tears in my eyes

Farewell


You've been hurt so many times
You always seem to buy their lies.
But that's all gone
Forget your past
Go on and dry those tears
Now come with me
I'll take you someplace safe.

The world is cold and so alone
We've got no place to call our own
But I don't care
Come run with me
And we will find a way
Believe me now
I'll take you someplace safe.

Will you take my hand?
'Cause nothing never ever lasts
I will seal our love
For eternity!

Forever


Misery loves company
and you're the chosen one
it doesn't let you go
until it loves you to numb

you were searching for something
something you don't know
you've been lost so long
cannot find the light anymore

remember the days
your heart felt sympathy and love
now your mind is dull
so lifeless

whatever you do
wherever you go
misery will follow
needs you everyday
like a desert needs the rain
your sinner soul keeps it alive

you try to run away
away from your hell
from your inner cell
what you never thought to know

misery loves company
and you're the chosen one
it doesn't let you go
now it loves you to numb

Fragmented


Dead like a stone
A withered rose
A weak soul
...and broken bones
Fragments in the middle of the crowd
Do you know the feeling I'm telling about
When a peace of mind can never be found?

I ran too close to the sun
I flied too high
The threshold of life is too fragile
I'm fragmented and lost

My blood still runs
But it feels too cold
Should I give up, give up, give up?
Should I be gone?
Burning fast from both ends
The racking hours come again and again
Fragile that's all I am

Hey! Was I born to suffer?
Did I ask to be born at all?
Life is ripping my heart out!

Frail Without You


Grief never dies
It slowly turns into
Another form of despair
Another form of pain

I gave you my life
You gave me yours
We thought it would last forever
We thought it would never end

For each other we took our lives
Where can I find my love
I`m frail without you
For a moment we shared one heart
In death we`d never be alone
But somehow we did part

In loving memory, that`s what it said
Nicely carved in stone
Somehow alive
Somehow still alone

Somehow alive even in death
Somehow still alone

Garden Of Stones


Snow has covered her grave
And flowers have withered away
Cold wind cries in the trees
Frozen tears mark my grief

The flickering, weak candlelight
Shatters the dead of the night
I bury my face in my hands
I try to speak but I can`t

With a breeze arrives a sparrow
Lands on her gravestone
I raise mu head and I realize
I am no longer alone

Haven of shadows in the garden of stones

Cold wind blows out the flame
And darkness surrounds me again
The sparrow starts silently singing
A song only she and I know

I shed a tear on her grave
And silently whisper her name
As cold wind still shakes the trees
I know she now rests in peace

With a breeze leaves the sparrow
Flies into the unknown
I bow my head and realize
I want to follow

Hollow Heart


Memories of you
Haunt me every day
A never healing wound
And nothing left to say
I die a litte every day, I die a little anyway
For the memories, for hell inside of me

No true emotions
No true regrets
No true devotion can live off bitterness
My hollow inside
My hollow heart
My restless soul is longing to depart

Come surround me with your grace
Wash away my deep disgrace
Take me into your sweet embrace
Where I can live in sin
I die a little anyway, I die a little every day
For the memories, for hell inside of me
No true emotions in my hollow heart

Immortal Love


Looking deep into your eyes
No better place to hide
When I`m scared and I`m weak
You can help me before I bleed

You can help me forget the pain
That I feel deep inside
Let me shed these tears
Let me just be with you

You`re my savior again
You`re my angel

My blood runs in you
Your blood runs in my veins
We love this kind of immortal love

Open up the scars
And give me your blood
I will give you mine
I think it`s what unites

This is all I believe
You`re the one I trust
I believe in our love
And I always will

In Solitude


I´m not the one to die for
Don`t grieve for me
After I am gone
No one remembers

Let me die in solitude
Under pale grey clouds
Let me sleep forever
Six feet under ground

This life ain`t what I wanted
Don`t cry for me
I`m not worth your pain
I`m not worth your tears

I say goodbye
And raindrops taste like tears
In the pouring rain I stand and die alone

In my final hour
As I kneel on the leaves
I can feel the wave of warmth
Was over me

Then it`s finally over
My earthly misery
I`m not to be remembered
Don`t cry for me

In The Heat Of The Night


talk to me, want my love
talk to me, but not that stuff
you ain't enough
using my love
and you call, for me
again, I'll see

in the heat of the night
you'll lose your heart and sell your soul
I lose control in the heat of the night
it's much too late to leave the trade
but I can't stand it anymore
you'll lose your heart and your soul
I lose control in the heat of the night

talk to me, want my love
talk to me, but not that stuff
who's on my side
losing my pride
and you call, for me
again, I'll see

It's A Sin


when i look back upon my life
it's always with a sense of shame
i've always been the one to blame
for everything i long to do
no matter when or where or who
has one thing in common too

it's a
it's a
it's a
it's a sin
it's a sin
everything i've ever done
everything i ever do
every place i've ever been
everywhere i'm going to
it's a sin

at school they taught me how to be
so pure in thought and word and deed
they didn't quite succeed
for everything i long to do
no matter when or where or who
has one thing in common too

father forgive me
i tried not to do it
turned over a new leaf
then tore right through it
whatever you taught me
i didn't believe it
father you fought me
'cause i didn't care
and i still don't understand

Jaded


I never meant to hurt you so
but here I am again
embracing someone else
it never seems to change

I know my heart belongs to you
but it yearns for someone else
I cannot help myself

I've begged you to forgive me
a thousand times before
this time it's impossible
don't want me anymore

and you took your things and at the door
you waved a quick goodbye
there is nothing left to say
just bitter tears to cry

living a lie ain't easy
truth comes out and kills our jaded love
I want you to forgive me
find a way to save this jaded love

Lacrimarum


Its all pain and its all tears
Its all chaos and its fear
Its all sin, its the feeling that Iäm not alive
I'm afraid to face my fate
Misery, sorrow and hate
Dispair lives on
Lives in everything

Dispair lives on and on
Lives in everything
Life is just a pain that I'll go through

Lies (For Fools)


I think it was true when someone said
Happiness fades away faster than pain
But you fools, you're breathing lies
Your sweet lies
You're looking for something you cannot get
Your hearts are lost in the vale of hope
Desperately you are waiting for
A miracle

But who'll catch you
When you falls?
No-one's there, you'll fall and you'll fall
You'll die with your sins
And then you're alone
Where is your god when things go wrong?
Again he leaves you alone
But still you fool
You believe he'll save you

With your religion you think you're saved
And blessed blood runs in your veins
Living in fear hoping that you'll find your promised heaven

You believe that you're better than me?
You believe those lies 'cause you're weak
I didn't find my peace but I can tell
I'm stronger than you!

Little Deaths


Can't find a reason you should respect in me
you're happy when you get me on my knees
hate me, hurt me, kill me
do whatever you want
why should I care?
I'm not the one who'll lose
I'm not the one who surrenders
I am what I am
is it so hard to understand?
I'm the king on my land
hate me, hurt me, kill me
think about me what you want
you cannot trample me under your feet.

Hurt me once hurt me twice
I'm not the one who cries
Later it's you who feels pain
Kill me once kill me twice
I'm not the one who dies
My life is full of little deaths
I will be born again.

Live In You


I need you like vampire needs blood
Am I in love for real?
My whole soul is aching for you
Should I be happy or should I cry?
I don't know, I've never felt this way before
There's nothing sacred but you

If you bleed, I'll bleed with you
If you die, I will die with you
Is this the feeling called love?
Will you take this death for me,
If it makes us feel that we are alive?
There's nothing sacred but you and I.

As the blood runs in your veins
I wanna be inside of you
I wanna live in you as the pain
You wanna keep inside.

I need you like the devil needs sin
You are my obsession
And I'll never let you go.

Loveless



becouse of you
my heart is cold and loveless
there is no love
no more

when you seal my fate
love turns to hate
when you give me a smile
inside of me something dies
you are killing me

when you embrace me
calmness in my soul turns to
misery
walking hand in hand with you
and flowers wither all around

Mary-Ann (R.I.P)


Silence fills the room
calmness is complete
misery is fading away from her face
her restless soul
is forever gone
always running away from here
she left me alone

She left me her warmth
for the cold days ahead
down pours the rain to wash away
the lust of life

New Year's Day


All is quiet on New Year's Day
A world in white gets underway
I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes on New Year's Day
On New Year's Day

I will be with you again
I will be with you again

Under a blood red sky
A crowd has gathered in black and white
Arms entwined, the chosen few
The newspapers says, says
Say it's true it's true...
And we can break through
Though torn in two
We can be one

I...I will begin again
I...I will begin again

Oh...
Maybe the time is right
Oh...maybe tonight...

I will be with you again
I will be with you again

And so we're told this is the golden age
And gold is the reason for the wars we wage
Though I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes
On New Year's Day
On New Year's Day